Sunday 19 July 2009

JULY 19TH - 17:01

memorable things that have happened in the last five days have included:

- yesterday when chris kelly and i came back to kelly's car, which was parked in city hall, and a couple were having sex on the front seat of the car next to us. awkward to say the least, they tried to pass it off as them having a conversation when they saw us, but his trousers were round his ankles. even more awkward when i had to get out of the car to usher kelly back, to help her reverse out.

- went to the record fair yesterday. jack frankum had bought out the prince section. first come first served, i say. it was disappointing though, no leonard cohen and an abundance of michael jackson jokes.

- friday night was the night of chris' serious monopoly induced breakdown. he was getting much to into it and got power crazy, kelly and i were tired so i messed up the whole board so everything was mixed up and muddled. chris went crazy and stormed out.

- worked on thursday night flyering for adam, did it for two hours with al, then went to lloyds with nikki, al and kate for a drink. the bouncers challenged my id saying it wasn't me, it really angered me so they decided to let me in anyway. absolutely ridiculous.

- went to nikki's last night for a low key birthday gathering. drank death cider and took hilarious pictures on nikki's camera. fell asleep watching science of sleep - it was the influence.

i am sat in my kitchen on a sunday, hungover. been for dinner with kelly and my brother, my sister and parents have gone to t4 on the beach. i've tried to show them the way to live in the past but you can't lead a horse to water. they will learn from their mistake!

going to see morrissey for the fifth time on wednesday. really looking forward to it, i haven't seen him this year and i haven't been to london since march. needless to say this visit i will not be in the same optimistic, smitten blindness that i was in march, but it is london - there's more than enough to blind you. 

i've come to a term this week that has enabled me to accept my true feelings, however insane and offputting they may seem, but the silence drowns out the longing. the only way to persevere is to embrace, i am hoping. this isn't gibberish, or self indulgent mindlessness - it makes perfect sense to me! if anyone reads this, this is complete honesty!

i was trying to remember the song that someone told me was about cancer spreading through a body. i can't remember who it was by or what it was called, but i remember him telling me that it had a choir and an orchestra in it. however i daren't ask him what it was called. oh joy.

out of all the people in the world...

this is for you.


this is for me.

bon iver remind me that not only is there potential in new music, but there is faith, intimacy, honesty and devotion. such an important artist, the bloodbank ep and the album are both incredible, seeing them at glastonbury was a truly religious experience. this song is beyond words.


i got to corfu on friday, to read beautiful losers and venus in furs.



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