JUNE 14TH - 23:42

it's hard to believe someone cares about how you feel when they don't make any effort to keep you in their life, and there's nothing worse than feeling disposable. i always try to keep people and nourish them as human beings, it's tiring but it's our duty... ignorance isn't bliss, it's ignorance. sometimes a certain person brings home the territorial, neanderthal, ignorance... he has beautiful lips though, and i still lose myself in his eyes. i was an experiment, if you care about how i feel then show it, if not - then don't lie. it never showed anyway. 

LIFE IS TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED. i have faith in intimacy and reality.

i listened to bits of the fall - the marshall suite on spotify, chris told me it was really electro. it's not that electro, but this song is brilliant, and the songs that proceed it. it makes me want to punch mark e smith, which in his language means hug.

'mark e smith moved to edinburgh but he liked it too much so he moved back to manchester'

jazz prescription:

jean genet went to school! need to read our lady of the flowers again...thought i saw jean genet in belton house today but realised he's still dead, and there wasn't a black panther sticker on his rover estate..

JUST FOUND AN AMAZING VON GLOEDEN PICTURE - wanted to try and find a picture from the taromina collection, but i can't find it on the internet, and i don't have a scanner to scan it in...this is proof to von gloeden's critics that he personified beauty in all forms...